the world moves fast
little steps
getting there
keep moving
Monday, March 09, 2009
twisting turning
Twisting and turning
so much to do
so many roles to fill
wife
friend
job seeker
home buyer
money saver
daughter
self reliant person
getting there
moving forward
lots of lists in my mind
twisting
turning
so much to do
so many roles to fill
wife
friend
job seeker
home buyer
money saver
daughter
self reliant person
getting there
moving forward
lots of lists in my mind
twisting
turning
Monday, February 23, 2009
The lie
The lie
Twisting and turning
over and over in my mind
Not told, but ready
ready as an answer
as an excuse
not for sympathy
but for more time
more time to straighten things out
the storm really does keep on twisting
'cause I'm building yet another lie
to make up for all that I lack
At least today there's movement
action
progress
appointments made
emails sent
work going on
but the time to tell the lie may be coming
or it may not be necessary
depends I guess but not on me
either way it's ready
and one day I'm going to regret going back to this particular lie
karma is a bitch
and she may bite me hard when the time comes
Twisting and turning
over and over in my mind
Not told, but ready
ready as an answer
as an excuse
not for sympathy
but for more time
more time to straighten things out
the storm really does keep on twisting
'cause I'm building yet another lie
to make up for all that I lack
At least today there's movement
action
progress
appointments made
emails sent
work going on
but the time to tell the lie may be coming
or it may not be necessary
depends I guess but not on me
either way it's ready
and one day I'm going to regret going back to this particular lie
karma is a bitch
and she may bite me hard when the time comes
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
listen and move
time
wasting
wasting away
so much planned
so much to do
so much that could make things better
too much time
not enough time
waste of fucking time
I walk around inside my head
screaming
begging for me to wake up
to just do it
do anything
do what I keep wanting to do
do that list that's been around for years
and years
and years
So many things I could do
to be better
feel better
look better
work better
love better
I'm so helpful to everyone
such a great teacher
a great leader
a great mentor
except to myself
I have the words
words
words
advice for days weeks and years
but no ears to hear it
no there are ears
just no legs
to arms
no desire?
no
plenty of desire
just no action
FROZEN
still
unmoving
and frustrated
wasting
wasting away
so much planned
so much to do
so much that could make things better
too much time
not enough time
waste of fucking time
I walk around inside my head
screaming
begging for me to wake up
to just do it
do anything
do what I keep wanting to do
do that list that's been around for years
and years
and years
So many things I could do
to be better
feel better
look better
work better
love better
I'm so helpful to everyone
such a great teacher
a great leader
a great mentor
except to myself
I have the words
words
words
advice for days weeks and years
but no ears to hear it
no there are ears
just no legs
to arms
no desire?
no
plenty of desire
just no action
FROZEN
still
unmoving
and frustrated
no angel
Spend all my time waiting for that second chance
for a break that would make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
and its hard at the end of the day
The storm keeps on twisting
I keep on building the lies that I make up for all that I lack
don't make no difference
for a break that would make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
and its hard at the end of the day
The storm keeps on twisting
I keep on building the lies that I make up for all that I lack
don't make no difference
174
What to say
What to do
What to be
I know it all
In my head
In my heart
But I can't get there
I can't even try to get there
I'm frozen
Null
But looking for help
Inspiration
Motivation
Action
Forward motion
I want to be
the person I think I am
the person other people think I am
the person I think I should be
the person I know I could be
If I could just get there
get there
just get there
174 days.
What to do
What to be
I know it all
In my head
In my heart
But I can't get there
I can't even try to get there
I'm frozen
Null
But looking for help
Inspiration
Motivation
Action
Forward motion
I want to be
the person I think I am
the person other people think I am
the person I think I should be
the person I know I could be
If I could just get there
get there
just get there
174 days.